Thoughts of Train A

I'm so confused. Sometimes the odds are truly in my favor and I just don't know what to do with them. I often feel overwhelmed with happiness towards certain situations/opportunities/people. I'll just be sitting there, watching and listening and becoming so sucked up in other people's happiness and curiosity that I'm overcome with excitement. Like when you realize how amazing and spectacular somebody in your life is even if you had never fully appreciated it before and then when the realization comes to you you're happier than ever when you realize they're in your life. Even excited. Does that make sense? It's like sitting at the edge of a giant vacuum , strapped to a thousand pound weight, secured, watching the wind suck in but failing to reach you, and just realizing the cool, calming breeze flowing through your hair. I like it. It's a serene standstill of a moment that fits like a glove for me.

A girl in my Theater class called me quiet today. Funny thing is, I'm not quiet. That's what I always think when people say that to me. "you're so quiet!" ~ "you don't know me!" I can get loud. In fact, most of the time, I am loud. You just gotta know how to make me feel comfortable and you'll regret it. I've had a lot of people say to me recently: "You know, when I first met you, I thought you were really quiet and shy. WOW WAS I WRONG" I open up to people. 

Love is a funny thing and although I've only experienced one form of it, I can feel it's force on the palm of my  subconscious 25-8.  I don't know where it came from but I haven't heard this song in forever and out of nowhere it comes inside my head. Sing me a song, you're the piano man... we're all in the mood for a melody... I called my step-dad in the room and sung the verses to him, asking what it could be. He picked up my guitar off the stand and played the first half of the song, It's lovely. Piano man, by Billy Joel. Click here to listen to it. 

Officially being my most random post, i'll close with that. I'm tired and have a headache from the non-stop thinking that had been overwhelming my head recently. 

Goodnight.